My Thoughts

Dear Whom ever reads,

I thought that perhaps tonight I could shut off my worry some thoughts to sleep. I was wrong, I have tried and here I sit.  I worry about my daughter whom suffers from PTSD, from horrific things her ex-husband did to her. She finally has trust in me, and tells me what all went on. I am surprised she stayed with hi so long, but then again he threatened to kill all her family…so that was enough. But, she and my grandson are safe now.

I am trying to find my way in life, its hard to worry about myself. Well, that was until 2 nights ago, when I had a bit of a breakdown. Sometimes all of this is just too much to bare. I am tired, I am lonely, I am confused.

This is not the way my life was to go. At age 55 years, I wanted more. I wanted to do more, but instead its like things have just stopped for myself.  I am in limbo.

And here, I sit….trying to shut down my brain, and my worries…..its not working!!

One thought on “My Thoughts”

  1. Worry destroys the future (guilt and regret ruin the past) — I have anxiety disorder so I KNOW what worry is. I have to take a medication for it, so I am not preaching to you at all, dear. I am in the same boat. What comes to my mind is the Beatles song: When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom: Let it be, let it be.
    I will pray for you, I am a grandmother and I know about worrying over our families. God bless you, dear girl.

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