Dear Whom ever reads,
I thought that perhaps tonight I could shut off my worry some thoughts to sleep. I was wrong, I have tried and here I sit. I worry about my daughter whom suffers from PTSD, from horrific things her ex-husband did to her. She finally has trust in me, and tells me what all went on. I am surprised she stayed with hi so long, but then again he threatened to kill all her family…so that was enough. But, she and my grandson are safe now.
I am trying to find my way in life, its hard to worry about myself. Well, that was until 2 nights ago, when I had a bit of a breakdown. Sometimes all of this is just too much to bare. I am tired, I am lonely, I am confused.
This is not the way my life was to go. At age 55 years, I wanted more. I wanted to do more, but instead its like things have just stopped for myself. I am in limbo.
And here, I sit….trying to shut down my brain, and my worries…..its not working!!