With God everything is possible

Hi my name is Nikki, I’m 17-year old I was born in Ukraine and I have adopted 3 years ago so now I leave in America, I have a big family who knows Christ and who loves Christ-like I do.  I’m sure a lot of us didn’t have an easy life, well I didn’t have the easy life to anything was easy for me, even when I accept Christ as my Savior. Before I came to America I was in the orphanage with my sister and brother but then we were separated. I started to hate my life and hate myself because I was only and nobody loves me and cares for me like Lord did. I didn’t have friends people used me only to go get cigaret for them or do for them something I never had a true friend. God was the only one with who I could talk and tell my struggles even if he knew but I knew he has planned for me. He loves me more than anyone ever did, he took care of me every single day. I was beaten in an orphanage and I try to suicide a lot of times because everyone hates me and sometimes I would get angry with God not knowing why this happening to me. My mom was alcoholic and my dad had another family and he was trying take as home but he didn’t because he died saving his kids from fire, what I’m remembering about my parents that their life wasn’t easy to because they didn’t have parents to and they were orphanage but they loved me and my sister and brother. When my dad died I was so angry with god even after my dad died I kind star hating God and give up on my faith. and I was tired of my mom because every day she will call me and say how stupid it and how ugly I am and that nobody needs me. But I knew she loves me and it’s not her who saying this words to me it evil who took all power over her. yes i was angry with God but I keep praying him and ask for forgiveness not rely knowing what is going happen to me next, Am I going died because that I wanted in my life DIED because I was so tired of everything and I was confused and I don’t know if God will give me other change. In couple days my little sister called asking me if one family can adopt her, my answer was so because I don’t know those people and I was scared to lose her too. Well then they came to my orphanage and asked me if I want to get adopted I say yes, but then I change my answer and that was couple times when I change my answer but then I say yes. Wel we all tree got adopted and it was so hard because every day I missed my real parents and I aways felt like it’s my fault that everything bad happens to my family. But well here we are in America every year I will have problems with my new family, we were so different and I didn’t know anything about this people accept that they know Jesus Christ, I become evil I change in a bad way, maybe a lot of you will think I start drinking and smoking and go to clubs but know I just mad really bad decisions in my life and I wasn’t so proud of myself and I hate myself for a long time for wherever I did. It took me the long time to get that this family is amazing and they love me very much God worked in my life so many ways that I could every imagen. What can I say Lord is everything to me. and I love him very much. A lot of you think where was your lord when bad things were happening to me he was there always he watched and keep you safe, but you can’t just sit and not doing anything, try to trust God I know it’s not easy but God is the best and there are only one God and no others, His love is big that you would ever image. 

John 3:16 

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 8:37-39

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 5:8 

But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Jeremiah 29:11 

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

1 John 4:18 

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.

1 John 4:9-12 

In this, the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.

1 John 4:16

So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.

1 John 4:7 

Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.

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  1. Dear Nikki — I am blessed by your faith, and the verses you took time to type out at the end of your journaling. Romans 8:38 is my absolute favorite. You are a strong and loving girl, and life will be good. Stressful of course at times, but good because you are trusting God. “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee because he trust in Thee.” I am so grateful to know you have a good family now and you know they love you. Try to relax and rest your mind and soul in Jesus. He has brought you to a good place of rest. Love to you….Grace.

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