I haven’t written for a while as I have been busy with life and feeling physically exhausted.
For the first time since being a young girl I do not feel the need to have a boyfriend. I am beginning to feel content being single.
I’m not in a stage in my life at the moment where I have time for a boyfriend. It’s funny that when I was drinking my life was filled with loneliness and boredom. Now my life is non stop with work, personal training sessions, AA meetings and a weekly meeting with my hypnotherapist. My diary is my bible.
If I do get bored I can hop on to Tinder and get myself a date pretty easily. However I find Tinder dates boring. Either they take you out for a drink, I don’t drink so the idea of having to get dressed up for an hour of drinking Diet Coke immediately makes me yawn. I’ve skipped out the boring part and invited a couple of dates back to mine to watch Movies which has ended up in sex.
I did this out of curiosity, it had been a while since I had sex for pleasure and I wanted reminding of how it felt like. It was over much quicker than when clients pay for my services and It really wasn’t mind blowing. It made me realise that I really cannot be bothered with the whole dating scene, well unless they are going to take me for a nice meal. But at the moment I’m on a diet.