All I think about is how I wish I hadn’t said yes on that day. Wish I could go back and put some sense to my old self and just tell the old me to think twice before I let me take away the most precious thing I had. I’m always going to blame myself for making that stupid decision without thinking through. I really want to forgive myself for it but I can’t. I always wanted to blame him to make it easier for me but well that never works, it always comes back to me . I’m always wondering that maybe if I did say no , my life would of been different right now.