I’m fat, it’s the truth. I know exercising takes time, patience, and a lot of work, and I’m not going to get results overnight.
I can’t help it though, lately that’s all I can think of.I went exercising about thirty minutes ago and I passed by where my parent’s were a few times. It’s hard enough exercising because I’m so embarrassed by even knowing I’m 145 pounds and people can see it. When I’m out walking or jogging I can’t help but feel so self-conscious. My mother said she could see the “fat melting off of me” really loudly as I was walking and was laughing about it with my father. It’s just embarrassing. I feel fat and I look it. I just want to feel pretty or beautiful. I don’t want people to just tell me that, I want to feel it and look it.
I hate myself for being so unmotivated to exercise, and I’m trying my best. I’m embarrassed by myself, and I hate my body. I’ve tried loving myself. I used to.
Every time I exercise, I just give up since it’s useless.