Have you ever felt like a hamster, endlessly running on it’s wheel? It’s not going anywhere, but in circles, inside his little cage.
That’s one of the easiest ways to describe what I feel like on a daily basis… Like I’m on autopilot, because my sanity just can’t handle certain days. Before I introduce myself any further, I’ll let you read a little poem/note I wrote about living with anxiety and depression (Yes most of my writing is done to help myself therapeutically deal with my overwhelming thoughts.)
My body betrays me
My mind consumes –
All pain, all sadness
These hopeless nights have turned to hopeless days.
I am in Limbo –
No longer living;
there is only survival here…
Anyhow, you can call me lil blue, or blue, whatever you prefer. I’m a 23 year old girl, just stumbling her way through life… Not sure if I’ll ever figure things out, but that what they say your 20s are for, so here’s to hoping. I enjoy video gaming, listening to music, binge watching tv shows (hint: bluebox is from one of my favorite shows), going to concerts, caring for animals, helping others and working out. I also enjoy going out with my friends when it’s possible, but I don’t have that many close friends at the moment (at least no single ones who have time to talk to me).
So this is just going to be my Journal where I share some of my thoughts, feelings, events and anything else I feel like.
That’s all for this Intro,