What I disliked vs. what i liked most about being raised in my family.

I disliked all the uncertainty that I felt from day to day. I hated that my parents frequently left in the evenings and sometimes they were mean when I would cry. I hated that my parents were drunk a lot of the time. I hated that my parents fought so much especially when it would get physical. I hated that my brother was so mean to me. I hated that I had 5 older half sisters who were adults and no one ever did anything about the situation even though they knew it was happening. I disliked that I wasn’t important enough to my parents for them to attend one of my sporting events or talk with me about my future. I hated being left in the car alone at night while my parents drank in the bar, this is when they couldn’t find a babysitter. I hated that I might ask a question and get yelled at. I hated that I always was afraid of my father. I disliked that my mom tried to buy me off in exchange for her neglect. I hated that I was so confused all the time not knowing what was ok to do and what wasn’t.

What I liked most about being raised in my family was that we lived in the country and I could go out and explore the landscape. I loved having chickens and cats. I loved it when my brother would take me fishing. I loved it when my dad would take us fishing. I loved it when my mom took me school clothes shopping out of town. I loved that we had satellite TV and water beds. I loved spending a day on my dads worksite up in the woods. I loved baking and sewing. I love that my mom taught me how to crochet. I loved going to bible camp. I loved it when my dad was in a good mood. I loved laying my head on my moms lap while she sat on the couch and crocheted.

2 thoughts on “What I disliked vs. what i liked most about being raised in my family.”

  1. Wow, all those bad things must have sucked. At least you have some good memories to hold on to, and you will know what kind of a positive presence to be in your own children’s lives 😉

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