I shout abuse at you, words stumble out of my mouth, it’s as though I am possessed the words are so spiteful that it makes me feel sick hearing them pass through my own lips. I am angry the rage is uncontrollable the emotion is so intense I feel as though I have lost my mind.
Insult after insult! I continue… all I want is for this horrible pain to leave my body so I continue releasing all the pain all the hurt.
You back away…you are shocked!
This usually plasid, kind and caring young woman has vanished in her place is a monster. You have no idea how to react, you are confused. You remain silent.
I vent all my emotion in this ugly monstrous outburst. Although my outburst is aimed at you this is actually when I need you most.
I need to know you care, I need to know you love me. Please say something.
Your silence feels like a stab in the heart. It shows you don’t care. I feel worthless.
I hate myself right now I am so insecure. All I need is to know you care and I you are not going to leave me.
The above is an occurring scenario in my life. My own insecurities cause me to lash out at people I really care about.