Ponder

I often find myself looking out the window pondering my life. It is an ancient notion for people to seek the meaning of life. If you go down one path and realize how narrow it is, how do you get to an open one that inspires and vitalizes you as you walk through your life. Why settle for a narrow road when the world has endless possibilities. Why is our society focused on aligning each individual to one walk and then make it so hard to switch if you decide that is not the walk for you? It feels unfair and often leaves me with a feeling of despair. I want so much more out of this life I feel like I could scream. My spirit is screaming inside of me to make a change, but I have no clue where to start. My fear overpowers my desire for a vital, fulfilled, and energizing life. I fear my bills, the debt I owe, the home I have. Is it a fools notion to think you can make a change with no sacrifice involved? Where would I end up? Where would my dog and I live? How would I have money to survive? Would it be as much as I have now with my desk job? How do you focus on the positive parts of a change when there are so many fears and all of society telling you to live your life a certain way. I am a believer that if there is a will there is a way. My struggle right now is finding a way in my quarter-life crisis. I do not want to spend the next 10 years of my life doing what I am doing now on a weekly basis. That is all I know for sure. 

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