I just got out of the hospital for the third time for suicidal thoughts, I’m doing the aftercare program of day treatment, which I haven’t done in the past so maybe it’ll help this time. I’m not feeling much different except that I don’t want to kill myself. The meds weren’t altered that much so there wasn’t any big changes. I see a new psychiatrist next month and i’m going to see about getting put on all new meds. the doctor at the hospital seemed to just want to keep me on the ones I was already on. That was what caused the problem in the first place. The meds weren’t working. But that’s all I had before was the meds. This time I have a whole team of doctors and mental health people to help so maybe it’ll work. Those are all my thoughts for today.