I feel terrible. Ita not that I am bed ridden with depression and feeling helpless. It’s more a feeling of being trapped inside myself. A feeling that doesn’t seem to want to evaporate.
I saw a counsellor this morning, talking helped I felt a bit more positive on leaving the session. Yet I still do not feel right.
I want to feel calm and content but at the moment it does not feel possible. I’m treating myself to lunch at one of my favourite restaurants. I’m trying to be kind to myself, I want to be at piece. I just wish my brain would calm down.
Sick of feeling restless and on edge, sick of the guilt. I wish I could stand tall and feel no shame. I just want to feel proud of myself!