Well, I haven’t written since November and so much has changed in every aspect of my life. Rather than show you how I got from there to here, I’ll just tell you where I’m at.
My love life tends to be the most interesting topic of conversation, so I’ll start there.
Demetrius, the teacher at work that I was sleeping with, has backed off completely. Maybe he senses that I’m seeing someone else… either way, I miss his friendship (and his sex), but I understand that his romantic feelings for me make him a little more fragile than me.
Which brings me to the next name on the list… Gatis. Gatis and I actually met a few months ago on an online dating app. He’s from Latvia, has the sexiest accent and he looks like a Viking… tall and broad-shouldered with blonde hair and blue eyes. Truth be told, I can’t believe he’s into me… he feels way out of my league. I have mixed feelings about where things are with Gatis and I. I like him a lot, but sometimes I feel like he’s not as into me as I am him. There has been no mention of me meeting his friends or seeing where he lives… At times it feels like maybe he’s just a private person. Other times it feels secretive. Maybe a cultural difference?
My biggest issue, honestly, is that I don’t see him as often as I typically see a guy when we first start dating. I don’t mean we need to spend the night together every night, but talking daily, seeing each other every couple days, spending the night together a couple times a week… that feels normal. With Gatis, though, we see each once a week and text a few times a day… Maybe he really is just busy. To be perfectly honest, I’m used to being the busy one and everyone else being at my disposal. Maybe this is healthier? I’m trying to quit being such a brat…
But pay attention to meeeee….