Thought 7

As I’ve gotten older, I’ve begun to consider my limitations and become more aware of them. Presently, I know I can’t run a mile in under 15 minutes, or ramble off the myriads of information I’m expected to know. I know I can’t charm just anyone into doing anything I want them to do. I can’t go wherever I want to go or be whoever I want to be. I know my limitations in that I am strongly aware that I have them.

Sometimes, though, I wonder if I’m not as smart as I think I am (and believe me, I don’t think I’m that smart). I know I can’t win any argument. I often feel like I can’t win MOST arguments. I always find myself interacting with people that assume I would do things that don’t make any sense.

Now, there are 2 ways to look at this. #1: these people have very little faith in mankind and have a relatively pessimistic view of most/all people. In this scenario, my acquaintances think anybody would reflexively choose the most unreasonable or illogical choice in most situations. Or #2: the character I have created in the eyes of my acquaintances is one that seems likely to choose the most unreasonable or illogical choice in most situations. 

I think any normal person would opt for the former description, primarily because it feels better to say “it’s them, not me.” However, in the spirit of being in tune with my limitations, what if it’s #2? What if there is some way  that I unknowingly presented this personality trait where I don’t think things through? That I somehow don’t consider all my options, am inefficient, and/or have no regard for things like time and money? What if that was my doing, and that’s the person you think I am?

How do I change that?

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