I am back at school in Harlem today. My morning classes actually went pretty good. They are usually way better than the last two, though. I am planning on taking a sick day tomorrow to go to Brooklyn to the DOE office to complete my i-9 and fingerprinting. Ugh. I guess I will just pay for fingerprints. Actually my current school paid for them the first time, so I guess it’s not that big a deal that I have to pay for them this time. I don’t know if I will ever be back here again after today. It depends on a couple of things- on how tomorrow goes at DOE and how the afternoon classes are here. If the kids are fucktards this afternoon, I definitely will be leaning toward not coming back.
I have got to learn how to “do school” like they do here. I don’t like some of the ways things are done here and it makes me aggravated. I have to get over that and just go with it. I must be out of my honeymoon state with the city now because I don’t know if I will stay here for 10 years. I feel sad and alone here, too.
I called and left a voice mail at 2 of the therapist choices I was given. I know I need to get started with someone soon.
I have no idea what to do for a sick day tomorrow. I guess I will send an email in the morning. I have no idea what I’m doing with my life. I don’t know what I”m doing here and how this happened. I’m not feeling any better off than I was at home. At least at home I could see Noah.