Who Am I?

I feel so lost now. Do I like girls or guys? I’m currently in the quaterly of watching Blue is the Warmest Colour and it’s going good so far. I’ve also discovered that I’m not an empath, just highly emotional. And that does not make me weak in any way possible. What do I really stand for?

On imvu, I’ve had more girlfriends than boyfriends. Ugh…it’s frustrating. Probably just wanna experiment. I’ve had very short lived crushes so far.

There’s just something about this girl in my class. Something about her interests me but I’m too hesitant to talk because we aren’t even close. But, she looks so adorable making her little quirky jokes and her walk is cute too. Woah *slowly vomits. These thoughts need to be repelled asap. I need to start back socializing more. I feel so empty these days and am falling way back in my studies and sleep as well. I currently have only two close friends who I stopped talking to and one I promised to call whom I haven’t called yet. What’s wrong with me?

I don’t want to be a disgrace to this family but I feel like I cause a great deal of unluckiness towards them when I’m around. It’s as if I’m getting misunderstood. I don’t want to be that trifling girl or that outed girl or that bigot girl. 

I want to stand for something but I’m such a coward. I want to speak my mind but fear that I’d come off too vulnerable. I want to be an understanding person but not to the point of becoming too naive.

I literally feel like a piece of furniture that anyone can step on and if I come too life it would be the story of the town quite fast.

Who am I really?

I’m so confused but I don’t want to limit myself. I hate what this overthinking and emptiness has done to my health.

Currently lacking the enthusiasm to start back exercising and building strong relationships. What’s really the point of falling in love with someone just for the sake of what the book says when you’re more attracted to someone else?




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