Why do I stay where I know I’m not wanted? Why do I live with people who act like animals? Why do I stay with a girl who doesn’t want me? I know that she doesn’t love me, it’s been clear for so long, she wants more than Ivan offer her right now, she wants me to be someone I am not. I had been afraid that her distance and lack of attention when I would speak of even meaningless things, that she would find somebody else. When I found the messages and confronted her with them, she tried to say it was my fault. I would like to get over it but I simply cannot, she has people that she can talk to, I have nobody. I can’t talk to her about it cause she thinks I want to forget about it, which I do but that wouldn’t change the fact that she did it. She found somebody else when she didn’t want to talk to me, she will do it again. I ask myself, why do I stay with someone who treats me so badly, and never wants to be interested in me? Why do I continue to live with her and her family, when I’m never happy here? Am I scared of being alone? I just want this nightmare to be over, I just want someone who will actually put in effort, rather than expect me to fix everything alone. I just want to be loved.