March 3, 2017
Another rough night. Once again it seems like I’m having to take an awful lot of sleep-aid to get it to work for me. The younger female sounding voice that is always the most harassing, the voice that I call “Pippy the Nazi” has been extremely annoying tonight. I think that she is using a deliberate tactic of “having fits” once again. She was using this tactic a couple of months ago as well. It makes it a little more difficult to ignore the voices when it gets like this and it certainly doesn’t make getting to sleep any easier. But, I’ve been in this same situation before. It’s nothing new or even surprising anymore. It just shows that “they” are more desperate now to find different tactics that cause me the most disruption because the old tricks just don’t work as well anymore.
March 4, 2017
I’m not writing tonight (or this morning I should say) because I just tried to go to sleep and was unable to. Which, is normally when I usually write and start venting my frustrations. I haven’t tried to go to sleep yet so we’ll see how that goes shortly. It’s been a little colder today, so while at home I’ve had to run the heating a little longer which brings out the voices more because they seem to use the background noise to amplify their voices, but it hasn’t bothered me that much tonight really. I guess perhaps I’m just so damn used to it now. I think that they’ve gone through their bag of tricks with me several times over and there just isn’t that much new anymore that they have left to throw at me. So, they just keep recycling through the same old tactics over and over, such as repeating the same phrases over and over to the point where it just gets to be damn annoying sometimes.
On somedays it can all be a real drag, but as strange as this may sound, in a way I’m glad that at this point, that’s all it is now…an annoyance. Back in 2015, it was so much worse for me and back then I still wasn’t sure if I would be able to deal with this utterly perplexing situation. The good news is that with time, I just seemed to naturally grow stronger. These entities now don’t cause me nearly as much anxiety as they once did. In a sense, they can still annoy me, but they can’t manipulate me and fill me with fear and anxiety like they once did.