March 3, 2017
I just took three doses of sleep-aid and am about to make my first attempt at sleep. I tried to take a short nap earlier this evening and I did doze off for a little while. But, when I woke up, I realized right away that I was being hit with the disrupting physical disturbances. I can hear “them” yapping away right now as I write this. I can block out the words, but there’s still this noise to their presence, it’s hard to describe. I try not to listen. It’s never anything worth hearing really.
In the past, every once and a while they would say something that would catch my interest. It wasn’t so much that they were saying something positive, not at all. It’s just that every now and again they would say something that would get me thinking for at least a little while. Basically, they would occasionally say something that would get me pondering over the meaning of what they meant. But, I soon realized that this is just another mind game tactic of theirs.
I’ve heard them saying contradicting things so many times that I just find it completely futile and frustrating to try and analyze anything that they say at all. It’s almost like some kind of “boy who cried wolf” syndrome that I’m experiencing. I’ve simply been lied to and led down the rabbit hole so many times by these oppressive entities that I’ve simply given up on taking anything that they say into consideration.
In fact, they could be telling me something that was 100% truthful and in any other circumstance, it might be extremely fascinating. But, at this point in my own situation, I just really don’t care about what they say anymore. It’s along the lines of…if you keep lying to a person for long enough, they might just start to not believe anything that you say. This is exactly where I’m at and I actually feel that it has helped me in dealing with this situation.
Yes, I am still aggravated at times that I am still hearing these harassing and intrusive voices, but the content of what the voices are saying has little to no effect on me now what so ever. This was not always the case though. Back when this situation was just beginning for me back in 2015, aside from dealing with the anxiety of just hearing these voices (at a more intense level then) once “they” came out of the recordings and with dealing with the physical sensations/disturbances also, I was unfortunately allowing myself to be manipulated and further driven into a state of despair by these trickster entities, because I was thinking more about and sometimes even believing the things that they were saying to me.
I was in fact allowing their mind games to have an effect. By believing the things that they were telling me, I was unfortunately allowing them to send me further and further down the rabbit hole. But, eventually I started to wise up to the mind games that they were playing and I became more and more suspicious of things that they were saying to me. Then it reached a point where I just didn’t believe any of it and I think that this is a wise path to follow.
I see no signs that these entities that oppress me are changing their ways and their malevolent nature any time soon. Perhaps such a change is in fact possible, but I’m just saying that I haven’t personally seen any evidence of this yet. So, I do think that just simply dismissing and not giving any credence to anything that they are saying was a good move and I fully intend to keep sticking to this approach. In a way, I pretty much have simply made it a personal policy for myself. I do feel that this has helped me to deal with the situation and it has in fact rendered one of their original tactics that they used against me (psychological mind games) as essentially ineffective now.