Day 8/ I am full of despair

I cannot remember the last time I felt good.

I question myself if I would be still capable to feel different way from how I feel now.

The dark clouds are covering all over my body.

I wonder if people could see it.

I don’t like being awake.

I try to stay asleep as much as possible.

When I wake up, I feel so disappointed that I got another day to get though again.

When do I get to stop doing the same thing?

I feel like this torture would last forever…

No energy to fight.

 

2 thoughts on “Day 8/ I am full of despair”

  1. I am sorry to hear that you are feeling low and down and out. I have several loved ones with Bipolar or some type of mental illness, so I may not be able to know how it feels to live with it, but I do understand it. I, myself, am physically disabled, so I have my bad days too. Don’t give up, Miffy. I know it seems impossible and I know some days can get really bad but there’s always something positive to continue on for! It took me 25+ years to learn this lesson, but learn it I did! Feel better and if you need someone to listen to you, hit me up…

  2. Hi Jimothy,
    Thank you for the comment. It means a lot to me. I just cannot stand this mood bouncing.. When I am low like now, I feel like it would last forever… no way out…

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