Feeling Sorry For Myself

I never hold myself for other people cause things that get taken away from them, I’m the one to get blamed for it. You never know where life leads you until you treat it like it’s nothing. A person shouldn’t judge on someone just cause they’re not sure where they are or where they’ve been.

Sometimes, life takes you to many places you never thought would be possible.

Close your eyes. Take a deep breath in and a deep breath out. Think of a happy place. In this happy place, where are you?? Do you feel relaxed and comfortable???

Places like this could change your life in the blink of an eye.

Before you get much older, what do you want to do before it’s too late? Whatever you choose to do; do it. Because you might not get a second chance at life and someday; sooner or later; you’re gonna regret it.

When your feeling loved somehow you manage to love other people as much as they love you and accept you for who you are and not what they think you are.

Do I see myself married in the next three to five years or so?? Maybe. If I’ll ever find the right person to love and to share the rest of my life with…including my son who I love and adore with all my heart.

Sometimes when I feel down; I just want to cry and watch nothing but movies about romance and marriage. Cause someday; sooner or later; that’ll be me walking down the aisle.

TBH; I don’t know how long my dad is gonna live. I want my dad to give me away before I lose him or anyone else in my family.

There’s something inside me that is stopping me from following my dreams of becoming a writer.

Cause If I don’t do something about it; I’m gonna regret it…

It’s what many people say…IT’S NOW OR NEVER!!!!!!!

So for me…IT’S NOW!!!!!…..

I’m a single mom and to be honest…I don’t think my family cares that much about me or my little boy.

Whether they do or don’t…I don’t care anymore. I got my little boy, my brothers, my dad and my mom.

A part of life that’s changing me is that I caer enough to get in touch with my family.

But I guess, I’m not that important as much as I thought I was.

If any of this hurts their feelings…I am NOT sorry. It’s how I’m feeling right now…pretty much every single day for seventeen years straight.

You’d all known that if you bother to call or visit me more than multiple times a year. But I guess; family isn’t that much important to you people.


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  1. I realized very early on that I am the unofficial black sheep role of my family. Not really the immediate ones, but in a whole…if that makes sense? Like, my cousins and aunts and uncles don’t really bother with me; acknowledge me BUT at the same time, I don’t really try all that hard to bother with them. At first, it kind of bothered me. Simple human need: acknowledgement. But now, I really do not care. And it’s not really about giving a shit for me, it’s more like I am glad they don’t interact with me, because I find alot of them to be ignorant, hateful or scum…and why would I want to be close to people like that? Be there for your son and those who care and love you. That’s all you need, nothing more!

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