I want to get to a point where I really enjoy being in my own company. During the day I have never had a problem with being alone. Often I will venture out and do a spot of shopping or have a bite to eat in restaurant. During this time I am content and do not feel at all lonely.
It is usually during the evening time that loneliness creeps up on me. When I am sat with my overactive mind being my only form of company.
One of my main issues is concentrating. My mind goes into overdrive when I am sat alone and unable to focus on soemthing as simple as watching television.
Rather than trying to find other people to help distract me from my loneliness I am going to master the art of being alone. I am going to begin reading lots of literature and try my best to watch tub programs even if he they are trashy in nature.
Once I begin to aprociate the simple things in life I will begin to feel whole. For years I have been filled with this ghastly empty feeling, as though something has been missing from my life. My old method was to destroy this emptiness in a self distructive manner. Drugs, alcohol and bad company.
It had taken me years to realise this. But now I know. The only way to rid the feeling of emptiness and loneliness is to love myself enough to enjoy being in my own company.