I turn down all the invitations from my friends.
I cannot be a cheerful me anymore. That is what they expect from me.
That is no way I could do it. I don’t know how I can even have a conversation with them.
They don’t want to see me like this. They would not know what to do…
None of my family knows where I am.
They are one of them who hurt me in the past.
I cannot let them do again.
I don’t want to have them in my life.
I am scared of being surrounded by people.
That is why I stay in bed for a long time.
I am alone. I know I am doing it to myself.
I will die alone.
Nobody would notice if I disappeared.