I try to stay asleep so that I don’t have to face the reality.
But while sleeping, I am being tortured by nightmares.
When I wake up, I am not sure whether I should feel relieved that it was dream or not.
In reality, I am suffered with this horrible feeling.
Even while I am asleep, there is no way out.
I wonder if there is a place I could feel well.
I cannot help but ask myself if I still know how to feel good.
I am scared of being awake.
Now I am scared of going sleep.
I feel hopeless.