When a dream became a nightmare

March 9th 2016 I thought I started a relationship with the perfect man. He talked about taking me shopping, looking at the stars, buying me flowers and basically being the perfect man. I was his second girlfriend so I thought he just had some learning to do, but then he would leave for long periods of time, not communicating at all with me and then just show up when it was convenient for him. He would lie about literally anything. Even if there was no reason. He would act like he was better than me because he is a man and I am a woman. I put up with this for a couple months until I tried to break it off with him and he turned to around to be my fault. I’m not allowed to ask questions or disagree with him because man is always right. I ended up in the hospital for bad depression because of him and ended up on a 2 week meth binge. I decided to give it up because that isn’t the life I want to live. I watched so many people die from drugs and I didn’t want to live that life. 2 weeks after I quit the drugs I found out I was pregnant which was a surprise not only to me but to the father as well. A week after that surprise we found out we were having twins. The dad and I decided we would try and make it work for the childrens sake. Throughout the pregnancy ‘fred’ kicked me out multiple times for various reasons: I disagreed with him, I came home early from work. Didn’t matter, he had the power and I wasn’t on the lease. According to him I am just a charity case because I trusted him to be there for me. At 18 weeks of the pregnancy after being kicked out for a week ‘fred’ let me back in and then my water broke  with one of the twins. I was lucky because they were fraternal twins with there own placenta and sac. They were expecting the other baby to come too but she stayed in. I was in the hospital for a week and he came to see me one time for 5 minutes. When I got home he was nice for a little bit but I made it 5 weeks .Until I delivered baby B at 23w 5days she was a miracle. She is still in the NICU and fighting. Her dad was to focused on video games and weed that he would rather “put her down” because she might have a disability.

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