I don’t understand what I feel anymore. I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop feeling lonely and worthless. And I don’t know if what I’m feeling is just sadness, is it caused by pregnancy hormones, or is it actual depression already. One thing I know is I want to cut myself off from everyone. I just want to stay in my room, sleep all day, and get this pregnancy over with. This pregnancy made things so much harder. It’s so hard to understand everything that’s happening while I have this child. I want to be the best mom, but I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to deal with my emotions and how to stop feeling sad. I hope that this doesn’t affect my baby. I feel so disappointed in myself. I don’t have a job, I can’t provide for my child, I’m not married, and I suck at being a mom. I’m selfish, I’m boring, I’m weak, I’m worthless. Sorry you got a mom like me, Nathan. I pray everything’s going well in there. I’m sorry I suck at this.