It’s my birthday today and I am feeling very greatful.
I know my last few posts have been emotional posts where I am pouring my heart out about feeling depressed. At the moment I am on the road to self healing.
I am no longer on a road of self distcition, but that doesn’t mean every day is fine and dandy. The path is bumpy, some days I feel like death but others I feel pretty positive. I know that as long as I remain focused and do everything I can within my power the future should look bright.
My outlook on life has changed, I no longer just want to merely survive. I want to lead a life where I am excited to wake up because I have hobbies and interests. I am beginning to realise that there are people who care about me, I am not completely alone.
In my drinking days I was so self absorbed I believed Alcohol was my only true friend. I isolated myself and drowned my sorrows whenever I felt down instead of reaching out to friends for support.
All I want is to feel comfortable in my own skin, feel successful and fulfilled, and have a network of friends I connect with.
I am no longer a victim. The power is within me to achieve happiness. It’s going to be hard work, but I know I can do it!
Happy birthday to me x