You know what frustrates me? You talking to me when you want to, and stopping when you realize that you don’t want to anymore. I know it’s a lot to ask but I need consistency from you. I mean, I’m not okay with you not talking to me, but wouldn’t it be easier if you just be consistent? If you don’t want to talk to me, then don’t. Just don’t pretend that everything’s normal when you decide to talk to me again. I know this is hard for you, I guess it would be easier if I would just leave? I honestly don’t want to, but if that’s the case I should start learning to be independent of you. I’ll be raising this child alone anyway.

I’m sorry for putting too much pressure on you.

I just want to know how your day went. You stayed up til 6 in the morning and I just know that you have a lot of stories to tell and I want to hear all about it. I even called early tonight because you keep complaining that I keep you up too late. But you just told me that you don’t want to talk to me.

I noticed how uninterested you are in me today, I should’ve gotten a clue. I shouldn’t have called. You told me that this is hard for you, and I know it is. And I’m sorry for letting you go through this.

I’m sorry for yelling at you. I’m sorry for not saying goodbye before hanging up.

I’m sorry for disappointing you. I’m sorry I’m not with you on your journey anymore.

I wish I could always be there for you.

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