I seem to feel things so intensely that I’m not sure how I’ll cope. It doesn’t have to be anything major, just a passing comment from someone else and it will have a HUGE impact on me. It can have me bouncing with joy, like I can’t contain the happiness and so I have to dance or jump to express it. Or it can send me into the start of a downward spiral, where I pick at it constantly. Turning it around,  looking at it from all angels and then building on it with my own securities until I believe that everyone around me can see the failure and useless person that I am.

I feel as if there’s no in between for me, or if there is it’s best described as just being numb. I just don’t know anymore. I don’t know what’s meant to be normal or not. I mainly feel really lost most of the time. Not really sure where I fit in in any aspect of life.

It’s all just a giant minefield and I’m anxious about the possibility of making a wrong move and having everything blow up.

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