Um hi…. I never thought id need one ove these but I do need help, I’m trapped in a cycle I don’t understand. I just finished high school last year and thought I’d take a bit of a one year break, well it was going ok until November 2016 when I started having anxiety problems and from there it only got worse.
I live with my mom and dad, I don’t have my drivers license and don’t have a job or college. I’m overweight and not proud of it and I come from a family line with a long history of depression and anxiety.
Now heres my main problem , due to my being over weight I have a few health problems, I’m pretty sure I’ve got irritabl bowl syndrome which can cause pain, gas and problems potty wise. It also adds on to the anxiety I already have. Now here’s how I say I’m trapped , I get anxious when I feel like there is something wrong with me , like if I get a pain in my side or if my arm falls asleep for to long, it spikes my anxiety, when this happens my anxiety makes me feel nauseous, which in turn makes me more anxious, it’s been going on like this for months now.
My family knows about it but they say it’s all in my head , and to a somewhat extent I believe them, but I’d like to find out ways to make it all stop. I don’t want to be so anxious I’m driving my loved ones away from me… but I don’t know how to make this all stop.
Im getting my medical cards soon and I’m going to book an appointment with a doctor so I figure that’s a step in the right direction but hell Im still far from comforted right now, I really need help but I’m not sure who to turn to.
im going to try to write here every day maybe twice a day maybe just getting this all off my chest will help me ease my mind instead of keeping this all bottled up -shadow