I went to school for only one class today. They have a 1/2 day because they are having parent conferences in the afternoon. I went to Chick Fil A after I left and had breakfast because it’s right there, and then I walked on down to PNC and closed my account there. I walked to Grand Central Station because it was right there and I haven’t been there in like 12 years. I took the train home from there. Now I’m home. I straightened out my Paypal account- got the new bank added and the old one removed. Now what? I guess I could ship those pants back that I bought on eBay. I think I will go to Jack Demsey’s tonight for the UK game. It doesn’t start until 9:40, though. I hope I can stay awake. I am super frustrated with my job situation. I hate not getting paid. No shit, right? At least I have the money to pay my bills if I need to- I don’t want to, but I could pay them if I have to. I have got to get a side hustle lined up. I need to work on that today.
Just Keep Swimming
I am a 48 year old adult child of an alcoholic. My childhood could have been a Lifetime movie. I am dealing with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression as a result. I am working on gaining an understanding as to what this means and learning how to be okay with myself. Some days, just killing myself and being done with it seems like the most sensible option. On those days, I keep telling myself, "just keep breathing in and out, that's enough for today."