Your first thought after reading my journal title will probably be something along the line of, “Just another suicidal person.” No! You are so wrong. I do not want to die. Sure, eventually all of us will but I am not talking about disappearing by death. I want that miracle person to find me and to take me away from everything I have ever known in my life. The person doesn’t even have to love me or want to marry me…just to be there for me while I adjust. I don’t just want it…I need it. I need it more than I need my next breath but no one understand this.