Actual memories are really hard and vague for me. I know I did things, I know certain events happened, but for me to pull up exact details or vivid pictures of what happened, chance are I wouldn’t be able to.
The few things I do remember, I still don’t fully remember. I remember bits and pieces but couldn’t tell you the full picture. Couldn’t say how old I was when things happened. Couldn’t say how long they lasted. Sometimes I may not even be able to accurately say who else was there… sometimes things I DO remember, I’m not even sure they really happened.
I’ve only ever mentioned this to my sister and no one else because even through everything, I know that THIS isn’t normal. To not be able to recall things from my childhood or even teenage years is not normal. I don’t know why this happens. I don’t know if there’s anything I can do to fix it and help improve my memory or if I just have to accept that this is another thing that contributes to me as a person.