This is my attempt to keep my thoughts somewhere besides stuck in my head. After almost 10 years of marriage, my husband doesn’t want to be married. His heart is closed. He doesn’t want to try. This all started happening while he was on a 6 month military deployment. We have an almost 4 year old daughter. My life is falling apart. I’m losing everything in one clean sweep. I’m trying to keep my faith in God at the forefront but I have voices coming at me from every direction. I don’t know if anyone will read this. I don’t know if I will even tell anyone I have this. I’m writing for me. I’m writing honestly. I’m doing it so I can maybe find some peace. I’ll elaborate more later.