So, I haven’t posted in a while so let me catch you up my life has been the craziest I can honestly say. There is just a lot of fighting a lot of screaming a lot of arguing just a bit of everything if I may say. and man I just hate it because I hate being frustrated and like dame I feel like there’s just a lot going on in my life right now that I am trying to rap around my had but its going to fast where I’m just like hold up! I’m looking for work I got to jump on the ball since my dad left my mom is like in financial distress and she’s like really going threw it trying o pay bills trying to pay the rent just everything and man like for real I want to get a asap job right now instead of going to school full time like I feel like I can do more but how like I got school that I’m going to in the summer then I have basketball practice with my girls then I have a part time job babysitting from 8 to 12 and that’s not till September so I mean my schedule is busy but not in till like 2 months from not but I need a job now like I’m so stressed because my mom keeps talking about what she has to pay and I want to help her. and there’s stuff that I have to pay like my braces I’m behind $600 and there 3,464 I’m trying to make the payments then I have my car payment then I have rent I got to pay my mom like fuck for real I hate being an adult I hate going to school but I know in the long run its going to benefit me but fuck I want it to hurry up already like I cant take it no more and it sucks because ima just leave it at because
I am 5'6 dark brown hair used to have blond. I am 21 living in California. have braces. a lot of people say I'm pretty but want them to see me for me instead of beauty hoping this will set me free from holding secrets and not being happy with myself. I show a smile everyday but faking it but yet I fill so sad everyday. so hoping to be honest with myself on here then I am in real life.