Do you ever get that feeling of the people you don’t particularly want to end up like? Everybody says you’re similar but they’re older than you and you just don’t want to wind up like them.
I want to be an actress, or an FBI agent, or a singer, something exciting but I chose the safe route, the safe options for my GCSEs. Now, why did I do that? Scared, I guess.
Everybody says it gets better but the future doesn’t look bright. It looks boring, lonely years without friends and love and happiness. Years stuck at a boring desk job. So what’s the point?
I kind of wanted to be a YouTuber for a while, I still do, when I’m older, but what’s the point. It won’t work out for me. I’m boring and I have no stories to tell and I’m not super creative, or funny.
I want to be everything all at once but I can’t because people will laugh when I tell them my goals, which even I know I’ll never achieve. I want to lead an exciting life. I only have one, and then it’s gone and I don’t want to waste it. But I will, knowing me.
I can’t stand the thought of my future being boring. The future should be something you look into with hope. Mine just looks bland, like everybody else’s.
Just scared, I guess.