lab lab lab.

I really hate physics labs.

I also hate Mondays in general.

And I hate weeks with odd schedules even more.

I just really don’t like physics.

I’m also really sad all the time. I really hate myself. I just want to sleep.

For a moment after I woke up this morning, I honestly considered skipping school. Or maybe dying. Just because it felt like death to have to get up off my bed.

I’m really lonely, all the time. I shouldn’t be, because I’m around so many people, and I love them, but it’s hard to feel like they love me. It’s hard to feel like anyone could ever like me. I don’t even like myself. Really I’m just sad and tired and I feel like I’m running out of time, although I can’t say exactly why. And I really can’t make myself feel very happy because even when I’m laughing at stupid memes or stupid videos, I feel empty. Empty and shallow.

Everything is hard and I’m sad.

One thought on “lab lab lab.”

  1. PrettyInBlack, of course memes and stupid videos don’t make your life feel fulfilled. You actually have to do fulfilling, difficult things in order to feel fulfilled. Watching dank memes won’t improve your life, it’s another ‘gateway’ like drinking alcohol or smoking weed basically. Makes you feel good for that one moment, but pretty bad every other moment.

    The best anti-depressant is to connect with people. Make a friend that you can visit anytime, and do anything with, at any time. Do you have someone you can hug and connect to whenever you feel down? You need to make connections with other people, it’s hard to live a lonely life.

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