So I’m 19 and I’m probably to old to be complaining about this but hey it made me upset when I was 10 and it’s still making me upset today. So in case no ones talked to me before or just doesnt know, I’m striving to become an artist, it’s been my career dream since I was 5 and at the age 19 it’s still going strong in my heart. I live for colors and blending, painting and sculpting. It’s my passion and drive, it’s a part of what makes me, me.
My parents however see it as a disease, sure they were happy with the cute little drawing when I was seven but secretly I think they thought back then that I’d grow out of my little ‘fantasy dream’ when I got older and now they just don’t seem to really understand my love for it, and to be honest I’m fine with that. I know that they won’t ever have the same veiw about art that I do and that’s ok….
but I’d like it if they’d at least pretend to be supportive… it hurts when I show them something I’ve done and the first thing they ask about is “and you did this instead of vacuuming, tsk” God it hurts so bad! I feel like I’ve been lied to, “I’ll support you no matter what you do”, “you can be anything you want to be” what a load of crap, it your a parent and reading this I hope you never say this things to your kids or atleast if you say them mean it!
i know I’m probably to old to be wanting for their approval but every now and then a little smile would be nice and maybe some constructive criticism anything but the look of uninterest and disappointment I get now.
just some support…
im just ranting now I know, but I needed to get this out of my head before I think about it too much and start crying again. I suppose that what set me off on this tonight was a fight with my mom. I wanted to start a new art project, one that acknowledges and honors the generations of humans from the ‘greatest generation’ to the newest generation ‘generation alpha’ to do this project I wanted to learn a bit more about the generations, what were their strengths, weaknesses, what made them so special. So while I could research most I though why not get the information from someone who actually lived through one of the exotic eras specifically generation X. I go to my mom and ask what it was like living when she was my age, she asks why and I tell her about my idea for the project and the look of just exaustion and unapproved hurt more then sitting on a angry hornet, I at that point I said never mind I’d look it up my self if it was so much of a big deal and we just had it out from there.
gotta say I’m really crest fallen, my one goal I want to achieve before I get to old and or die is to make people happy, I want people to smile when they see my work but so far I’ve only gotten frowns, gotta say it really hurt bad, kinda makes me want to stop trying, it hurts too much. Artists deal with critics all the time I know that I understand that. But all I want is a smile…. is that to much to ask for?