I got to start work yesterday. Thank god. I know my pay is going to suck, but at least it’s some income. I don’t want to have to side hustle, but I know I won’t have a choice. Once I get going with my correct pay on track, I hope I will be in good shape. I feel a lot better mood-wise just because I have a job to go to now. I am not thinking about leaving NY now. I am thinking about my future- at least trying to- focus on what will happen next rather than dwelling on the past I cannot change. I have got to learn to say, “oh, well,” and move on. I have the opportunity to make a clean fresh start at my new job as a brand new person- reinvent myself. I can be the person I want to be.
I will keep pushing myself to go on dates and meeting friends on the Bumble BFF app. I can make a new life for myself here.