LIFE IS MESSED UP …LOL

Life is really hard sometimes…and we question why?????   But in all honesty it is just what we are believing to be our truth…I have been around all the junk that this world has to offer…and I gots ta tell you…if isn’t worth the pain and crap you have to go through to obtain the happiness you and truthfully all of humanity seeks.  That one elucive strand that we think will make our lives a utopia…whether it be a thing…a person…an dream?  It doesn’t matter…it all boils down to one thing and one thing only…what you believe to be your truths…example…if you really want something in this life…do you really believe you can obtain it?  Or do you doubt it secretly in the back of your mind somewhere…that you at too young…or don’t make enough money…or maybe don’t deserve it..somehow…I know this because I struggle with this everyday of my life…or so it would seem…but I have decided to take what I know and apply it to my own situations in my struggles…and see what happens… See? the way I see it…this world and the people in it are basically good people…with the exceptions of the sociopaths and the growing number of narcissist out there…and there are all kinds of those,….in all sorts of degrees…but fundamentally all humans want the good for man kind… So I chose to believe that there is hope for this world…after all I am still here…and as long as I breathe…there is at least one of us fatalist left.  Yes I am a Christian…and yes I try my best to abide by GOD’S WORDS…I don’t always do it…LOL…but that is why CHRIST had to go to the cross…isn’t it?  That is the way I understand it…at least.   And people try to separate Christianity from this world…and I just don’t get that…sure there are things that you are not allowed to participate in concerning this world…but isn’t it the same if others are of the  worldly persusion? (lets use that term…for the sake of this post)…think about it???  What are the parells between the two worlds…I like music…and it speaks a universal language…to the heart…and NO not everyone is going to get it????  But those that hear it and it touches something deep inside them…now…they will get it…and respond.  And it can be used in a heavenly since and a worldly since….it is all about your perceptions…where your heart is at that time…when you hear…send…or receive it…I happen to have the opinion that GOD uses all sorts of ways to connect with people all around the world…but I have friends that do not share that belief…so why are they bothering with me???LOL…my truthful opinion is…1. either they want to cover their butts…and say well I have this friend and she does it?  Or 2. Secretly they want to believe what I am saying is true…but are just too afraid of not be accepted by the higharchy of the church…or their peers…or this land for that matter…cause I believe it will come to that…sooner or later…THE WORD says it will.  But for right now…I am just trying to understand myself and how I fit into all this???   I have desire both worldly and spiritually…so how is one suppose to balance all that out? within one’s own mind and heart????  IDK???  But I do see GOD in all things…HIS goodness in all people…and HIS diversity in how HE deals with each of us…on our won turf.  HE is not some IDK even know  what to call HIM…in the worldly sense?  HE is just DADDY to me.  But my mission here is not to condemn anyone…it is to show GOD in everything I do and say…and think…and I honestly fall really short of that calling…but thanks to JESUS and the HOLY GHOST…I can ask for forgiveness…and be assured that I will get it.  So I posted some songs…and I believe GOD gave them to be for a specific reason…to express my honest feeling for a certain guy Nol…and for my cousin down south…she seems to be going thru a really bad time of it….with someone…only I didn’t know that until today.  But just another example of how GOD takes the simple things of this life and confound the smartest of people…GOD is in the details for me…LOL…well I’z gots ta go…LATER TATER. 

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