I didn’t write yesterday because I was tired, stressed and felt no kindness whatsoever in my body or spirit. What causes people to want to hurt others? To cause them pain without receiving any gratitude. Is it our inherent need to feel better than others? To feel superior….as if we’ve won the game?
Yesterday I felt the hurt caused by others. The hurt meant only to break my soul and shatter my confidence once again. It took me down, broke my spirit, made me cry.
Thankfully I have amazing people in my life. My sister, who always lifts me up; my new boss, who stopped everything she was doing, talked with me and even called me this morning to see if I was ok; and my husband, the person in this world who stands beside me and holds on to me no matter how hard I am pushed.
I took my time last night to reflect, process my feelings and package them up into boxes. This morning I put those new boxes of emotion on the shelf with the others (there’s a lot of boxes).
Today is Holy Thursday, the beginning of the Easter Triduum. I love this evening, the prayer, the quiet; it fills my soul. I could sit in adoration all night; I feel at peace there.
I am still learning and growing; this year is not over yet. I have not fully experienced all I am to learn before I bloom into the person I am meant to be at the end of this journey.