Journal Day 176 – Give me more time

Monday, April 17th 2017

Megg’s Schedule for the Day 4/17/2017:

8:45 – 9:00 = Write Schedule for the day
9:00 – 9:30 = Create video talking about morning routines
9:30 – 10:00 = Make food that will last entire day
10:00 – 10:30 = Eat food
10:30 – 12:30 = Work on Book
12:30 – 1:00 = Eat food
1:00 – 1:30 = CS1102 Reading
1:30 – 1:45 = Break, reflect
1:45 – 2:15 = CS1102 Reading
2:15 – 2:30 = Break, reflect
2:30 – 3:00 = CS1102 Reading
3:00 – 3:15 = Break, reflect
3:15 – 3:45 = CS1102 Reading
3:45 – 4:00 = Break, reflect
4:00 – 4:30 = CS1102 Reading
4:30 – 4:45 = Break, reflect
4:45 – 5:30 = CS1102 Reading / Discussion Assignment Homework
5:30 – 6:00 = Eat, Break, reflect
6:00 – 6:45 = Edit and upload morning routine video
6:45 – 7:15 = Walk outside
7:15 – 7:45 = Online Course
7:45 – 8:00 = Break, reflect
8:00 – 9:00 = Work on Journal Entry
9:00 – Onwards = Sleep

I was supposed to go to sleep at 9 PM today. The time right now is 10:47 PM. A new video is rendering, and I just took my selfie for the day. I had the entire day off today because it was a holiday.

I wrote this schedule very early in the morning, and it’s something that I rarely do, but I had a free day and I wanted to spend it productively. I find that scheduling is at least a little bit helpful. It would be insanely helpful if only I followed it. I did study for around 3 hours today, I did work on the book, I did reflect, and I did make food that lasted me the entire day in just 30 minutes. However, I didn’t do any of the Udacity courses. I also went off schedule for a long time. I’m already 2 hours off my sleeping time.

Damn. You know what though? I did learn a lot with my studying. I need to focus on them entirely now if I want to have the programming assignment done by Wednesday without cramming. Argh. I need more time….. Tomorrow I have work for 8 hours again… Then on Wednesday, the programming assignment is due… Then the book is due by the end of the month… Then I will be charged $300 for not having finished Udacity yet… Why do I suffer?

And I have to make a video every day. I have to write a journal entry every day. I have to take a selfie every day.

I need more time. I would have a lot of time actually if I didn’t have a job. I would 100% destroy all my goals and shit, if I didn’t have a job. I think it’s really holding me back from my potential. But at the same time I’m getting a raise by the end of the month hopefully, and a new title. I’ve already been a Solutions Engineer for a while, it just took a really long time to get all the paperwork and things ready apparently. I wrote about this transition back in December, and it’s nearly May.

If shit hits the fan though and I get laid off, Megawatt will go into adrenaline mode overdrive. I got Bitcoin I can sell, I have stocks I can sell, I have precious metals, memorabilia, my car, etc, etc. I have friends I can rely on that will let me live with them. I have no debts, I have savings in my bank, and I have retirement savings. If shit hits the fan, I can survive for more than a year. I’m a vegan, I can spend less than $30 a week on food and still get 3000 calories a day.

I honestly do not even need a job right now. I just like the income of money. I like the security of money flowing in every two weeks. I hate the life drainage though. I hate the daily bullshit. The 8 hours spent doing nothing but making another person richer while I toil my life away. I’m not complaining though. I enjoy taking the slow route to success. I hate the bullshit, but we all have to go through it. I like to think I’m different, but I can’t even follow my own plan I wrote down this morning.


This is the video I made today:

P.S. I HAVE NINE SUBSCRIBERS!! Check them subs bro. 9. One away from double digits.

Selfie for the day

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