The world was drenched in hues
Of red, gold, shades that make you stutter
But why was I a white-leaded pencil?
How do I apt to that white piece of paper?
Then I told myself
“Hey.. it’s okay. You don’t need anyone”
And so I did it,
I pushed everyone
Away from me, I’m away from scrutiny
Fuck everyone right?
That’s what I repeat over and over
But I’m sitting here void of light
As my heart beats slower and slower
I drowned in intoxicants
I fought fire with fire
But instead of numbness
I’m not any less sober
And that was the story of how I jumped the colours
I tried to be pink, but ended up green
Then I jumped a shade darker, was then a black marker
Welp. At least I could be seen
Isn’t that what matters?
But it all popped in vain
Even after multiple tints
What‘s left is me squirming in pain
And all that..
All that for a piece of white fucking paper print
But then you came..
Extended hands made me wonder “Why?”
And the next that came out put me to shame
“Meh, I like black papers more anyway”