I will never pretend to stop caring for someone, especially when they mean so much to me. I will forever wonder how little to keep and how much to give to anyone in the future. I tell myself there is a good chance I will eventually get over this, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less right now. I am feeling detached, disconnected… I feel as if I am inadequate and insufficient. I keep having this unrelenting sense of anxiety that is making me more and more uncomfortable with each moment that passes.
I choose to wear my heart on my sleeve. virtually, everyone has labels hanging over them. I would like to remove them, but the truth is, we are all larger than the labels people give us to confine and define us. my soul speaks through images, words, and art; every shutter captures another piece of the soul, converting fragments of my life into memories. I draw lines to cross and wear clothes to take off. I live with friction in my bed and fantasies in my head. I am living an eternal fairytale where everything is coated in love, love and more love. I am flashy, I am deep, and my heart is the centerfold. passion is essential in my life. too many people are simply living but very few are alive. forget about the plastics and the superficial. I want classy, I want trashy. give me anything that breathes with conviction: thinkers, lovers and leaders; people who turn love into paintings, people who turn tears into sonnets, people afraid of life but never afraid to live.