questions that keep reappearing in my mind as I remember. my grandfather always told me to, “stay with a person because you would want them to stay with you” against any and all odds. I’m lost… I don’t know what to do. I have become so desperate to stop hurting. I wonder… if years from now I will still feel the heavy absence of her that creeps in my heart, every passing moment. I wonder if I will ever stop reaching for her in the dark, hoping that someday she will turn her head… and kiss me.
I choose to wear my heart on my sleeve. virtually, everyone has labels hanging over them. I would like to remove them, but the truth is, we are all larger than the labels people give us to confine and define us. my soul speaks through images, words, and art; every shutter captures another piece of the soul, converting fragments of my life into memories. I draw lines to cross and wear clothes to take off. I live with friction in my bed and fantasies in my head. I am living an eternal fairytale where everything is coated in love, love and more love. I am flashy, I am deep, and my heart is the centerfold. passion is essential in my life. too many people are simply living but very few are alive. forget about the plastics and the superficial. I want classy, I want trashy. give me anything that breathes with conviction: thinkers, lovers and leaders; people who turn love into paintings, people who turn tears into sonnets, people afraid of life but never afraid to live.