So…. Where do I start?
My husband is seven years older than me. I’ve always loved dating older men but never this much older than me. I thought I accomplished a new intellectual level, seeing as most men my age are immature and don’t know what a woman really needs, most of them at least.
When I met my husband he was my best friend at first for about 6 months then he told me he had feelings for me and wanted to start a relationship with me, which was ok. He took me places, long drives, just music, food and talking. It was great!!..I finally found a man who took his time with me, that loved and cherished me…what more can a girl ask for?!…. Right!?…I can take figure out where we went wrong.
Well, since we are currently silently warring right now, we are sleeping in separate rooms(my choice, not his). I just feel like if we are not talking why sleep together, plus we have a guest room/ my retreat, so why not sleep there…so it won’t be a night of us trying not to touch each other in our Cali-king size bed. It’s almost like when we argue we turn into these to very distant, very polite but rude people.
I am honestly tired of trying. He’s not the way he used to be….or is it…he showed warning signs before we got married….I just ignored them. I noticed when we first started dating that his mom still cooked for him. I noticed that she would always have to tell him to clean the bathrooms. I also noticed that he’s more of a taker then a giver when it comes to the “bed”. I even noticed that because we click so much on an everyday basis that our fights seen to be alot worst than everyone else’s. Now I’m regretting that I never focused on the signs. These warning signs are important because that exactly what I got when we finally moved in together, a lazy man who rarely cleans, doesn’t feed himself unless I make it for him, a man who just does his business when it comes to the bed and rolls back over to sleep. I am constantly hurting because I want so much more in this relationship but no matter how much I communicate that to him… He just pacifies me for a couple of weeks, then back to his old ways….
This really has me thinking, do I rrreeeaaallyyy want to spend my life this way??? It’s either put up with it or have mental break down…