The Beginning

So Where to Begin…

Today is the day that I start writing out my thoughts from the day. I don’t know what I’m hoping to get out of this. I think that’s ok, too. 

I am currently sitting in my brand new apartment that I just moved into with my boyfriend and puppy. I am watching Keeping Up With the Kardashians, my guilty pleasure. I think watching other peoples’ lives makes me feel better about my own. I am in a happy place now, but it took a long time in a dark place for me to get here. I started college as a completely different person than what I am now. I lost sight of what was important to me. I lost my loans for school and ended up getting suspended twice. Now I’m trying to claw my way back and continue my education, but it sure isn’t easy. About 2 months ago it felt like everyone was against me. I had no money to my name, yet the bills were piling up. I felt like a burden to everyone I loved and honestly thought it was never going to end. Then I got a new job and a new apartment and everything started to change in my favor. 

This was more of a ramble of things that I just needed to get off my chest to an unbiased audience. Everyone else I speak to about it feels the need to give me advice or tell me they were there for me in the thick of it all. That’s only true for about 2 people. It’s not others’ fault, I didn’t reach out. Anyway, I don’t really have any more to throw on to a blank screen at the moment so I guess I’ll check back in at a later date. 

Thanks for listening 

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