I was a shitty mom today. It’s hard to write this and admit it out loud, but it’s true. My girls were amazing; they gave me gifts and treats and flowers, we had the day kinda planned, but something inside me wasn’t happy, I didn’t even know I wasn’t happy.
The day turned ugly; I alienated myself from everyone, felt like a piece of crap and wished the day away.
I realized part way through my pity I was missing my own mom today. I said as much to Jim….I’m the only one in our family who doesn’t have a mom. Once I said it and cried for it, I was able to see my way through it.
My girls showed their whole hearts and their ability to forgive. When I reached out and apologized, they forgave without hesitation. They didn’t ask for payback or explanation, they just forgave, loved and agreed to have a Mother’s Day do-over.
They say a mothers love is unconditional….today, my daughters love was unconditional.