I’m really bored, and I’ve gotten a bit tired of trying to improve on my non-existent artistic abilities, so I decided to reread my favorite HP fanfiction, the one that got me into my OTP.
And boy oH BO Y it is a feels trip. I feel so attacked right now. I remember I almost cried while reading it the first time, and honestly–! It’s THAT good. It’s got more *mature* bits, which is why I wouldn’t recommend it to most people, but it’s TERRIFYINGLY good.
It makes my heart unstable.
Everyone hates this ship, and I am fully aware that shipping it is akin to sinning… especially because it interferes with a mostly beloved canon ship. But I can’t help it. I don’t hate the canon, but I just never saw the chemistry between the original pairing.
I remember the first time I read this fic, I was living in that cold and dark city in China. I found it by reading a Buzzfeed article about the top HP fics that one should read… So I clicked on the link out of curiosity and started reading. I think I must have read almost half of it that night (staying up to about four a.m. to do that… it was a weekend so don’t judge) and I was legit SHAKING after I stood up. Of course that might have had something to do with the fact that by that point I had been awake for approximately twenty-two hours straight but I mean I was TREMBLING, honestly, at how emotional and perfect everything was. It did require some suspension of disbelief for certain plot points, but I mean, it’s a fic, it can’t be perfect.
It’s almost perfect. I want to squeal about it to someone. Alas, I have no one to do that with. I will just suffer in silence.
I aspire to write as well as that fic author. Oh my GOD.
It is such a FEELS trip. All sorts of feels. Every time I reread it, I get hit by a truckload of feels and it hurts but in a really great way, if that makes any sense at all.