Being told you are too fat to be in a relationship with is soul destroying. For someone who has always hated themselves. Always thought I wasn’t good enough. That I was too ugly. Too fat. Too loud. Too me. For someone like that to have it confirmed by someone they care about deeply that they are in fact not good enough. It’s world shattering. I have been crying non stop for over 2 hours now. Cut my thigh multiple times. Yet still, nothing has eased this darkness; this pain inside me. All I can think is that I want to get in my car, leave everything and everyone behind, and drive off a very large cliff… everyone would be much better without me in their lives bringing them down with my own self hatred.