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My emotions are all over the place but one . Happiness . For some reason I haven’t smiled not one time today. I woke up with tears coming down my face . I’ve been listening to the same sad music all day hoping that the thoughts will go away but all that do is confirm that they are there . Just thinking about it rips my heart out of my chest. when it comes to death i am numb but if it was them who died . I think I would die inside too . They are my everything . Funny thing is i don’t think they know how much they motivate me to be a women I know I can be for them and for me . They drive me . They are like the sun on a rainy day . If the thoughts that run my head freely ever come true I don’t know what I would do with the person im supposed to be coming . I need them to stay alive   

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